NEWS

“DIE KLEINE NIEDERDORFOPER” 2019-2020

I am excited to play the part of “Ruthli” in Die Kleine Niederdorfoper starting November 2019 until February 2020. tickets are available here.

Reviews St. Agatha

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Sabrina Kern Documentary “Reporter” on SRF1

Sabrina Kern appearance on The Q on FOX

EUROVISION SONG CONTEST 2018

I was beyond humbled to sing backing vocals for the official participants representing Switzerland, The ZIBBZ. It was one of the most surreal experiences of my life. And I am proud to have been a part of that amazing team.

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THREE

OVERSEER

Hi my name is Addison

Russel puts his hand on her face.

RUSSEL

Hi Addison, I’m Russel, remember me? Everything will be ok Addison.

The Overseer seems confused, suddenly starts crying.

OVERSEER

Russel...Russel? Please help me. My name is Sabrina Kern. I don’t know what’s going on anymore.

Russel and Addison hug, both in tears now.

RUSSEL

How? How can I help you? What can I do?

The overseer suddenly, as if in a trance, wakes up and looks at Russel puzzled..Holds out her hand for him.

OVERSEER

Hi, my name is Addison. Who are you?

………

aaand “CUT” – the director yells, his voice slicing through the tension in the room.

Sounds like a scene from a movie with Russell and Sabrina being two thoroughly involved actors and comitted scene partners. Right? They work powerfully off of each other and are incorporating all the notes from the director, some of which they were told just minutes before and there’s a camera man standing just inches from their faces…Except…Not. This is not a movie, there’s no camera man, and one of them is not even an actor. In fact, for one of them this is REAL. Or maybe..just maybe..it’s real for both of them.

I was thinking about this essay for a long time. What angle do I take on to talk about this journey when I have so much to say and endless thoughts and stories running through my mind. Some would think it’s easy to write an essay on something you love so dearly, something that you did for 7 months straight, but it turned out to be much more difficult to find the right words. There’s so many things that are different about this acting experience than any of my previous ones. The one that stands out the most to me was the “blurring of lines”, which is what I want to talk about here. In my opinion, it’s one of the coolest aspects of immersive theater. I even feel weird calling this immersive theater, because the world that Darren Bousman created here is so much more than immersive theater. It’s art , it’s life, it’s a game, it’s a dream world and it’s pure chaos. And that description already embraces those blurring of lines. It’s art yes, it’s just a game yes, but it’s also actual life, the creation of an entire world that is oh-so-real to the participants, the actors and yes even the creators.

The scene above is one of countless scenes that I had the honor and pleasure to be a part of during my journey with Tension. There was constant wonder on the side of the participants wether this was real or “just” theater, just actors acting. And quite frankly, sometimes I wasn’t quite sure either. It almost became like a game between the creators, the actors and the participants. You never knew who believed what and what everyone was really thinking. But what was obvious is that everyone cared. Cared about the story, the world of tension and the characters of tension.

 And having real people connect with the character you were given and watching them have real emotions because of that character is probably the most exciting, strange and beautiful things that can happen to any actor. Truly. There were times were I would get emotional myself because of the interactions with the participants. I don’t think they realize how much they impacted all of us too, it certainly wasn’t just a one way street. Again, they were like perfect scene partners and didn’t hold back. There were several times when grown men and women cried in front of me, because of me or with me.

As the this little scene above clearly shows, a part of that “blurring of lines” was breaking the fourth wall. This happened towards the very end of the run. Suddenly we started introducing Darren Bousman, Clint Sears and myself, the actress Sabrina Kern as actual characters in Tension. That is a weird and scary thing to do as an actor; To play yourself. Especiallyto Sabrina Kern. I actually feel very comfortable being other characters, I love it, I fully immerse myself in them and write character bios, make detailed decisions about who they are and what they want…everything an actor should do of course. But I am not neccessarily good at … being myself. It’s way scarier to me to just be “Sabrina”. My younger self used to absolutely hate to get in front of people, wheter that ‘d be in front of my entire class in middle school or simply answering a question at a big family gathering that my weird and slightly too loud uncle just asked me while everybody is staring at me. It was pure horror. THAT was my tension. But at the same time I would be jumping around on various stages in Switzerland in theaters and musicals and have no problem at all being the center of attention. Well luckily at some point little Sabrina figured out that the secret of speaking in front of people is to just be a character, don’t be yourself. And that’s where my personal journey of “blurring the lines” started. I realized I could just invent various characters that are somewhat close to who I actually am and then get in front of big crowds and start talking. And so I did. And it helped and by the end of it I didn’t even need to be an actual character anymore, just Sabrina, with maybe a few tweaks and adjustments in her self esteem but that’s it. So long story short when Darren told me I would be saying the lines “My name is Sabrina Kern” to participants that one cold day  in the Production Office while I was eating a cold slice of pizza at the warehouse, only minutes before a performance, I was excited and ready for it but also terrified as soon as the words came out of my mouth. I had already been Addison for 6 months at this point and “Addy” has already invaded my real life in so many ways. She helped me to be more confrontational (in a good way – I hope. Buut let’s not ask the people closest to me..), more honest and more intense, I guess. But until that moment maybe I didn’t realize how much of Sabrina Kern is actual in Addison. And to be wearing that red dress (that btw the lovely Emilie Autumn found for me and Darren never even liked and I quote: “I don’t hate it. But I really really don’t like it”) and then say my own real-life-name was scary and emotional for sure. Later on when I got the chance to speak to some of the participants after everything was done, they told me that that moment was actually just as weird for them as it was for me. They had already known at this point (thanks to some research on their part) what my actual name was so they were quite shocked to hear me admit it after me trying to hide it for so many months.

The most emotional moment for me was during the “Finale” event when Addison took the gun to try and kill herself, saying she was now back in CONTROL. And Michelle telling her, in front of all these people, the participants I learned to love dearly, Darren and Clint, whom at this point I considered really close friends,  “no you’re not Sabrina Kern, you never were”. A part of me died on the inside at that moment, because it was the final event and yes I was now “just” Sabrina Kern again. Not Addison, not overseer, not Gatekeeper 2, just Sabrina Kern. I proceeded to take off my red dress and put on my jeans, white tshirt and chucks and drove off into the sunset (no literally, I drove off into the sunset at the end). No more Addison.

But of course, I am ok with that. And I embrace it and love it. And I am forever grateful for having been able to play the part of Addison, the meek little girl from Ohio that moved to Los Angeles to be an actress but fell in love with the wrong guy and suddenly found herself being the leader of a cult. Of course there were so many more layers to that story, as you can tell reading through this book. It was the craziest journey I’ve ever been on anda little part of Addison will always be in my heart.  And she will be there when I get to immersive myself into the next character. And I can’t wait to find out what or who that character

 it is. I just know I will give it my all again and fall in love all over again…I have many more stories to tell. 

TWO

And it is time for another blog. Been back in LA for a little over a month now and I’m happy to announce that I’ve not had kale once since I’m back. I have though been to a tanning bed recently, and by recently I mean this morning, and let myself be talked into trying out a “MUST HAVE PRETANNING LOTION THAT LIKE IS LIKE SO ESSENTIAL TO YOUR LIKE TAAAN THAT LIKE YOU REALLY LIKE NEED IT”. What can I say. The lady was really nicely tanned. I trusted her. Well. Being the person I am I obviously ended up having an intense allergic reaction to the stuff and ended up LEAPING out of the bed after 3 minutes in a panic only to notice that I have gotten a terrible dark red rash all over my body and running (IN MY UNDERWEAR) to the front desk to yell at the tanned lady and tell her I need a shower. She calmly guided me to a SINK (??) where I furiously tried to rub this burning sensation off my body whilst not only texting Stee to come to the tanning place THIS VERY SECOND (I amost got mad too, like why aren’t you here already??did you NOT take a chopper?poor guy) but also factime my mother who, bless her little heart, was just trying to buy some groceries at Migros during the time.

Anyways. I survived. The redness slowly left after 90 minutes of burning pain and looking like a lobster. In other news. Tanned front desk lady KINDLY gave me some MORE tanning credits at her saloon for free. Thanks so much. CANT WAIT TO COME BACK.

Ok moving on.

I have been doing quite a lot. I’ve been on many great auditions and callbacks and was able to win over an entire room of Managers at one of the showcases at Actors Artistry. I decided to do my comedic scene and they actually laughed out loud … anybody who’s been to these showcases knows how big of a deal this is.  So YAY! I booked a court show as one of the principals and also booked a shoot with the AMAZING photographer Patrick Hoelck for his new coffee table book. I mean just look at some of the people he photographs:

 

 

Cool right?

SO, I’ve been going on a lot music theatre auditions lately and there’s a few things I’d like to say about those.

FIRST. Music theatre auditions in LA are INTENSE. The rooms and halls are always designed so you can hear the people before you and let me tell you – there’s no fuck ups – or rarely- here in LA. Serious singers.

SECOND. Don’t even get me started on the dance part of the audition. I can barely process the first 8 counts as the choreographer has already moved to the 400th 8 count of chainés and chasses and fan kicks and turns and fondues and blabla. Smile and wave. Smile and wave.

THIRDLY. I’m sorry but music theatre actors are often a lot worse than your average actor. Worse in terms of how annoying they are at auditions. Stretching intensely, talking about their song choice, their vocal chords, their last 700 jobs and even worse: MANY people walk out of the room and let the other 30 girls know: “OH MY GOD THAT WENT SO WELL. And they’re soooo nice”. Cool thanks CINDY.

But bottom line. Obviously there’s so many positives. And music theater is truly what feels like home to me. I just love it. Who know’s. Maybe I’m just like that girl Cindy.  And we can be friends who stretch together and giggle and braid each other’s hair.

And on that note. Here’s me singing popular!

 

In other news I have also started taking meetings with some immigration lawyers to talk about getting the process for my next Visa started. Which overall is an EXTREMELY fun experience – the kick-you-in-the-crotch-spit-on-your-neck fantastic kind of thing.  

OK. On to the next step. Love you all. And I can say this because I know few people who will actually read this. But HEY! THANKS!!!







ONE

Obviously this is my very first blog entry. Strange. Feels more like talking to myself since I don’t quite know if anyone will ever read this. Well except for Melanie and Claudia. But that’s mostly because they have to. Friendships and sisterhood are more or less a contractual thing in my book. You read my blog. I listen to your Tinder stories. So with that being said. HI!

I just spent these past two weeks on vacation in Switzerland. Feels weird sometimes to talk about being in your home country on a vacation. But that’s what it is now that I live in Los Angeles.  Seeing my family and friends is the most amazing feeling in the world. Period. It fuels me and gives me energy and happiness to go back into the acting jungle in LA. To make sure I get to see everyone, and considering they were all spread out through Switzerland (and yes, I know it’s a tiny country, but still) I decided to travel quite a bit and go from one little mountain town to the next. So I grabbed my wonderful boyfriend, downloaded the first season of Serial (but really guys, was it Adnan or not??! Or Jay? AND WHAT WAS THAT NEESHA CALL?) and packed one small bag with old winter sweaters and jackets and went on my merry way. These impressions say more than words:

Needless to say, we had a spectacular time but now I am so ready to go back to Los Angeles and work work work. I am starting to film my first part in a feature film mid January (ugh. Hello Kale, Bye Fondue) and have my first audition on the very day that I arrive in LA.  I’m ready to jump right back into it and make this the best year yet.

I set some very specific goals for 2016 (thanks to my mentor Debbie), and even though this is very personal to me in many ways and even though my insecure part of me tells me not to post these online, I feel that it is exactly that which will help me and push me even more to achieve those goals. So. Here they are:

In 2016 I will:

 

A) sign with a theatrical agent

B) sign with a body parts agent (hair!)

C) book a co-star role in a 20 min sitcom

D) book a national commercial

 

And E)

 ALWAYS BE KIND TO MYSELF AND OTHERS